Good Friends

Ya know, I really dont deserve the friends I have, Ive put most through hell and back, and yet they're still there. Ummm, why? That makes no sense to me, tbh. Why are they still here? Shouldnt they be with my other "friends": Gone? It's nothing about me that makes them stick around, I know that. Someone is gonna read this and kill me, but idc......It's how I feel.